Cut Long

"September seemed to be cut short this year . . . . "
- Angel's songs, by Paige Aufhammer

September is such a darling month, and this past one has been so especially kind to me that  I feel a little churlish for not posting during it at all. I had a lovely afternoon tea at a cute little tea place in Ellicot city, drank compressed pu-erh that had been packaged in an old tangerine skin, ate chocolate cake provided by kind coworkers, enjoyed a frightfully bright  bouquet of daises, and spent a quiet little weekend at the beach.

 The only things I didn’t do, really, were sew, post, or make progress on the insurmountable mountain of reading I have left to do for the year. Well, the last one is only half true – I am halfway done with a book about Magellan. The book is unbelievable. It’s written in a style reminiscent of a certain era in children’s literature, something between Kipling’s Just So Stories and Nesbit’s Enchanted Castle. And the redundancy! If he mentions one more time the fickleness of Portugal’s king, or draws attention again to Magellan’s limp, I really don’t know what I shall do. Laugh, probably, for I can see that under other circumstances the absurdity of the author’s style would be quite amusing. Mountain climbing is no laughing matter, however, and I keep thinking he could shave about a hundred pages off if he stopped repeating himself.

And so that’s how October is starting for me. Cold and dreary and gothic, just as I like it. I like feeling warm and snug and well provided for in my little house while the rain blusters about, and the only small shadow looming ahead is that I have managed to book myself up right through the end of the month. In fact, there is one particular Saturday on which my presence has been requested for no less than three events. It cannot be a complaint, not exactly, but I must stop and wonder at myself – me, a homebody – for gallivanting about during this delightful “stay indoors” weather.

Here’s to lovely evenings-in and friends worth going out for!

Shanuy b’makhloket: Wouk’s, The Hope

TBR: 2/24

Well, I finished Herman Wouk’s The Hope on Sunday (and then read Sci-Fi in the form of Integral Trees on Monday. Again, not a TBR book). Reading makes me feel like reading, but after these two books I definitely need something to detox. Also, I discovered I still can’t spell Israel.

Let me back up. The Hope is semi-contemporary fiction, though it will be straight historical in another thirty years. It covers the wars Israel first fights as a nation, starting in 1949 and culminating with their winning of the eastern half of Jerusalem in 1967 during the so called six day war. On this account I thought it would be rather depressing political non-fiction.

It didn’t occur to me that I rather like politics in my fiction.

Really, politics are one of my favorite things to read in science fiction or fantasy, because in order to do it well an author must have a convincing dynamic, whether that be factions within a country or the clash of outside cultures. I enjoy the cleverness of such art, so perhaps I shouldn’t be surprised to have enjoyed that same thing here, in a novelized retelling of real world politics. Was it depressing? Yes, real life is more sneaky and cowardly than fiction. But it was also neat to have an idea of what the world was like, globally, sixty years ago, especially from a different nation’s perspective.

On top of that, this was a war novel, an element I’ve also come to enjoy in the exploratory fictions. Wouk’s depiction of war was highlighted by his clever maneuvering of characters so that, even though our main cast was fairly small, having only three real soldiers who could be considered main characters and two or three supporting characters who preformed administrative and command duties, we as readers still had the feeling of being everywhere. Oh sure, there were some fights that we missed and were given second hand through letters or debriefings, but for the major battles Wouk contrived to get us in the front seat, even if that meant making one character transfer from paratrooper to armor (read: tanks) halfway through the war, and then get injured during one battle so that he could end up in the fight for Eastern Jerusalem later in the same day. Nice orchestration and much appreciated, because to a civilian army maneuvers make more sense when you see them happen. It was also helpful geographically to get a sense that this place is north of the last battle, or whatnot. My geography is a little whimsical and depends heavily on events in history to pin down borders, especially ones which have fluctuated throughout history, so The Hope has done me the great boon of fixing Syria, Jordan, and Sinai permanently in my mind.

The sum of all this is I enjoyed the meat and bones of the story a lot more than expected, to the point were I would dare say I liked it.

But then you have the dessert, in the form of human relationships. And unlike in Potok’s book, the characters here are not suffering from any stream of conciseness induced distance that lets me obverse them without emotion. To varying degrees, I cared about all of the major characters within this book, and that means their mistakes hurt me. The back of the book promises three “equally remarkable women” – to balance out all the men, I suppose. It fails to mention one of my favorites, Nakhama {{1}} [[1]] Even though I respect her and cheered her victory, I have to say in real life I think it’s a little cowardly to go after the Emilys and not the person who, you know, made the vows to you in the first place. But what do I know?[[1]], who stays quietly in the background as a wife and mother but shines whenever the author’s pen deigns to fall on her. I suppose her story isn’t tragic enough to merit an equal status with the other characters. What women get this honor? Well, there’s Yael for starts, the gold digging female solider and, later, business genius who aims for love, a family and wealth and ends up with two out of three; Shayna, the unconventional but pious student who struggles with her own high standards and conflicting desires; and Emily, the utterly unnecessary American girl who makes the last half of the book torture to read. I ended up skimming through sections with her in it because she was vulgar – and that’s just considering her language. Her sense of humor was juvenile and base, and when characters who I had previously respected were in her company they fell right to her level of conversing without a blush. The book itself describes her as weird and I have no wish to argue with it. At any rate, because all the relationships (besides Nakhama’s half) are so complicated and messy, even though the story ends with a glimmer of possible hope for these three “remarkable” women, it feels rather like a desperate wish rather than a concrete surety.

In a lot of ways, the relationships in this book parallel Israel’s own turmoil, a mirroring that is in itself quite biblical. For instance, right from the start we are aware of the disparity between historical Jewish nationalism and this new, secular patriotism. The Jewish victors may sing psalms at the recaptured wall, yet very few care to observe the laws which give that wall meaning, and the younger ones – yes, even those born in Israel – are becoming ignorant of them. So too, there is dichotomy between traditional values and actual fact. Though most of the characters have a cultural respect for family and a desire for children, infidelity is – we are both told and shown – rampant amongst all levels and sexes and therefore culturally acceptable. Wouk takes no stance on whether this is outright “wrong” or not, but he never holds back on showing how the consequences of such inconstancy are painful both for the parties involved and all innocent bystanders.

To take another angle, the beliefs held by these returned Jews are as different as the accents they carry, and the tension inherent from having so many factions forced to work together makes up a large part of the political worry in the first section of the book. We see soldiers who are alight with zionism and those perfectly willing to desert first chance they get. For a brief moment, the world pauses to see if civil war will break out in this fragile country. Even on a global scale, the Jews at this point in history are anxious for allies, and they make friends with the Polish, the French, the English, and even the Germans in their attempt to get weapons. They are in no position to be picky about their friends, nor dare they expect their current allies to recognize them in the future. This cultural and political ambiguity is undoubtedly dangerous, as best displayed by the marriage of a strict Kosher man and an openly atheistic woman. They keep separate pots (color coded) and eat on separate table cloths (also color coded) and the wife’s bitter humor about the whole situation bids ill for their future happiness.

The parallels continue towards the middle of the book, when Israel starts to suffer not so much because of the war but because the world outside simply seems brighter. Emily enters the scene in full force as a tempting escape from sanity the everyday, and Yael leaves Tel Aviv to start a business in Los Angels (“Only for two years, so we can have the money to live well.” She tells her solider husband, but then toys with extending it to four). As readers, it is during this period that we learn about the yerida, the Jews who leave Israel for better lands, for promising futures. Can you blame them for wanting to leave a dreary and uncertain peace? Even if there is no war on today, what is there for them in this battle torn country? And yet, at the same time, where is loyalty and national pride? Those ideals are slowly picked up by Yael’s brother, the fighter pilot, who admits he has been studying the Talmud with one of the guys (just to know it, not because he’s getting religion or anything) and implies that he is no longer breaking his marriage vows. He urges his sister to return home. As another character puts it, earlier in the book, “. . . The Arabs don’t really need rockets, do they? They need patience. They just have to wait while Israel gradually leaks away to America. . . .”

Finally the book draws to an end, the Jews are – at the close of this chapter at least – victorious and safe. Yael comes home and vows never to leave again. Emily quietly exits the scene (too late, the book is over now). Shayna – well, she’s still a little depressing, but her head is up and she’s searching for her own path. Whatever it is, she knows it will not take her from Israel.

Still in the Foothills: TBR Update

It’s the halfway point for the Mount TBR challenge – do you remember this? I flippantly resolved to read 24 of the books I had received from my grandfather before the year was over. Easy, I thought.

 

So far my total is 1.12 out of 24 {{1}} [[1]]I have, of course, read more than one book since the first of January, from Dirk Gently to the Madness Season, but as none of them have fulfilled the requirements of the TBR challenge they are worthless to me as a number[[1]]

 

I actually read the sole completed book back in April, during my beach weekend. Chaim Potok’s The Book of Lights. I first read Potok in college, where I had the opportunity of taking Jewish literature. We read The Chosen and I loved it. I gave it to my brother – you know the one, too smart for his own good and perfectly up to date with all the cultural things which I have mostly managed to duck. His response? “This book has such awful language!”

 

Another failed recommendation.

 

I remember not liking the sequel to Chosen as much as the original. Nor do I find this book good on a “reading a book” level. It is, of course, superbly well written. And I enjoyed it, yes, because seeing the world through a different pair of eyes is utterly fascinating. And these eyes were so different: a Jewish boy from a poorer section of New York during the 50s and 60s, going to Jewish Seminary even though he’s pretty deistic, eventually being forced into voluntary service in Korea as a military chaplain, and occasionally having the opportunity to vacation in Japan. The last was especially interesting since he visited places I have actually been, like Kyoto – probably my favorite city –  and Hiroshima. I can easily believe I have seen the same “shell of a building, charred brownish stone, blasted windows, skeletal ribs of a dome.”

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There were parts I found touching and parts I found beautiful, but Potok has written a character that is emotionally distant and that makes us, as readers, twice removed from all the events. It’s hard to be fond of or love any of the characters, though I do tend to like the character type that the protagonist represents. You know, hard working and silent. As for language that might offend my brother  – there is some, mostly blasphemy, a few awkward moments, and one completely horrifying scene which you will need bleach to remove from your retinas. The latter naturally makes it hard to recommend this book to anyone else.

 

Like a lot of this kind of thoughtful, philosophical literature the obligatory romantic relationship is rather flat and irritating more than anything. Again, this is partly because the protagonist himself seems out of phase with everyone, including his girlfriend. Then too, the relationship is doomed to failure by the writing style. I tend not to get attached when the phrasing becomes too close to stream-of-conscious. Honestly, I also found the girl vaguely annoying – a common occurrence for me, which I’m sure is a character defect on my side and has nothing to do with the author or the girl in question. On the plus side, the relationship is distant in more ways than one. The main character spends half the book in Korea where, for quite natural reasons, his lady love is hardly mentioned.

 

There, that’s my review, or rather overview. I’m hoping to catch up on my reading list this month, as I take a break from TV. The free time that came with my unemployment in May led to a massive media overdose. Call it detox or call it penance, I’m looking forward to being able say I did something during June. Continuing with TBR,  I’m reading Herman Wouk’s The Hope, which is also Jewish Historical Fiction, though more action-political since it focuses on Israel and the surrounding area during 1948 and onwards. Since Potok’s book actually took place during this same time period I can’t help feel like I’m doing a unit study, a feeling further reinforced when I consider the next text in my stack is a straight non-fiction book on the Kabbalah, the mystic Jewish texts which featured heavily in the Book of Lights. After that I will probably end my informal study with one of the few other Jewish religious works I was gifted. And then, who can say? I have plenty of books to choose from as I make my way to 24.

Skipping a Beat: Or, the Tempo Revs Up

Dear Readers,

I have been thinking of you quite often over the past few weeks. For one thing, I really wanted to post at least once every month this year, and was all ready to pop in on the last day of March, even if my entry only said “Made it!” And yet, somehow, I missed it. For once it is productivity that is stopping me, for now when I have both energy to do something and time to do it I find a dozen different projects lie happily at my feet. Thus the theme of this blog, I suppose. A woman of many hobbies, and devote of none.

To show how much I’ve thought of you I have some pictures. They prove my intent to share these mini-milestones, for I certainly do not take them for myself, and I have yet to start instagraming. See, here’s one from March showing the first little seedlings:IMG_0687

Behold, arugala (I’m pretty confident about this, but considering the lemon balm/lime basil incident. . . . ). There are also little poky leaves which are either cress or borage (or lemon balm, I suppose). Now that they are developing real leaves I’m siding towards borage. The dill is coming out too now, its seedlings like little blades of split grass. A volunteer army from last years horridly lanky pair. Saturday I went out and “weeded” as an excuse to stare deeply into the dirt and soak up the beautiful warmth of the sun. I did a little thining, and confirmed that the mundane looking seedlings in the door-wise corner are indeed cilantro, as I hoped. The seedlings smell of it all ready, and I wait in hungry anticipation for the summer. All I need now is for some of the winter thyme to show itself and my joy will be complete, as far as the large box goes.

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Look, whales!

Oh, what is this picture? Knitting? Yes, do not be shocked, this is a glimpse of a Christmas present for the Geekette. Finished in March and given hastily before I could find yet another thing wrong with it. I am really happy about them, but those decreases on the left hand! Finishing wool mittens in March was an excellent strategy to chase away the chill weather, but not a good idea if you want immediate confirmation of their long-term comfort. That’s okay, they are done and it’s not her birthday. I can cultivate a little patience for the weather’s whims.

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Now this is really for you, I have been learning HTML and CSS. Prior to this I’ve picked things up mainly by poking into themes and making Decollate – fun but maddening. This time I am trying to learn from the ground up. I have watched the first few videos of Do Not Fear the Internet, interspersed with the appropriate lesson section from Code Academy. Here is my review of Code Academy after completing their basic website course: they make things quite easy to follow and allow hands on application to drive each point home. I love this way of learning, their use of badges and percentages, and their general layout. Only three things have annoyed me so far:

1) The window where you get to see your changes magically manifest is buggy (in Safari) and instead of scrolling you have to select the contents and drag in order to see anything below the top two inches.

2) The website likes to refresh and Boot You Out. I googled it and, for once, I’m not the only one with this problem. Frustrating but not really a big deal (it usually saves your progress).

3) The course I’m taking is how to make a website. We had just gotten started on the topic that I really, really care about – positioning – when they pulled out the magic wand and shouted “Bootstrap.” I think bootstrap is cool and all, but not in a class. Please teach me how to actually position things first, and then introduce me to possible shortcuts. I’m taking their HTML & CSS language course next and I’ll let you know if it covers the subject any better.

Between these two sites I am learning quite a bit, and you can keep up with my progress here (when I finally insert a link ^_^ EDIT: Done!). Eventually I will be able to make my own theme, and then there will be no stopping me (bwhahaha!). Look forward to it!

 

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A more recent picture of sprouts.

An Unlikely Piece of Cake

Okay, so I wrote this a few weeks ago now, but it’s nice to step back sometimes and check to make sure you didn’t miss a turn. So here it is, just a little story about how good a little folly, and a bit of cake, can occasionally be.  

 

It was kind of a lame idea to begin with. Just a joke, really. We had got to talking about Blue’s Clues at work, brought together by memories and the Mail Time song, and I mentioned that my mom had a cake pan featuring the hound. “If I can find, it I’ll sign up to bring cake in for your birthday month, when is it?” I rashly volunteered. And so there I was, in January, knowing that the cake needed to be made now. But I had no idea what to do. I eat cake but I don’t really make it. I prefer cookies and brownies and pudding. Cake, in my mind, is rather like a blank canvas. It can look nice, it can taste nice, but it’s still just the thing people put the actual food on – or in – and I had no idea what kind of cake to make. Worse yet, I had no idea how to pipe it.

I ended up using my Martha Stewart dessert book and modifying the coconut cake recipe to be more coconut-ish. The original assumes there will be plenty of coconut on the outside, but I wanted to make Blue, not a snowball. In the end I put in ground up flakes and added orange peel and orange juice (that is, the juice of the orange I zested).

In other words: I winged it like a mad scientist.

It should have been a disaster. I used the last of my homemade yogurt for the sour cream, and when I poured the batter into the pan and discovered I needed to double the recipe if I didn’t want to end up with a jelly roll, I subbed the rest of the sour cream for coconut milk. I was positive it was too big to cook through in the middle. The bottom started browning, so I covered the narrower half of the cake in tin-foil, my mind full of images of burnt dog. Then when I finally took it out I was convinced it had completely dried out. Not being able to cut a piece off to see was torture. I put the cake in the fridge and went to bed, gloomy and defeated (and, yes,  a little melodramatic).

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The next morning brought a few more hitches that really should have put a stop to the whole thing. I used a medley of sugars for the Italian meringue because I was running out of white. It boiled just a bit too long, caramelizing a little and then hardening on contact with the cold egg whites. The beige and brown sugars gave a pleasing, rustic color to the frosting that made me afraid of how it would handle dye. The three frosting tips I have were all too small for this job, so I tapped up two zip-locks instead (a la this extremely useful video). I substituted coconut oil for half of the butter and watched in anxious anticipation as it mixed. There was no way this was going to work.

 

And yet, somehow, everything came together fine. My blues are too, too close together in shade, and I forgot how truly hideous pink dye taste, but the result is satisfactory. I can’t remember ever liking any of my frosting jobs, but my mom is a master cake decorator and maybe some of her mojo passed through to me via osmosis. Or maybe it was all the magic of meringue buttercream. Even when it seemed to be melting in my hot hands it piped out steady and true (well, except for when unmixed clumps of coconut oil got stuck in the tip. Yum). When I brought the remains of the cake home that night, after it had been siting in the breakroom all day, I was able to wrap it in plastic without the frosting squashing and sticking. It stayed perfect down to the last bite, though texture wise it definitely was (marginally) more pleasant at room temperature than straight from the fridge.

Basically, the cake was a complete dream. A credit to no one.

It was both more, and yet less, dazzling in real life . . .

 

When I tackled this cake I was in the middle of another long, stressful week at the office. I got a new responsibility in October, and slowly I have started feeling less and less capable of doing my job well. I’m not motivated enough to be a perfectionist, but I have standards and assumptions about my abilities, and it’s depressing to feel oneself continually fall below those. Having this cake turn out, despite my inexperience and my hasty shortcuts, made me feel such a flood of relief that it’s hard to find a word worthy of describing it. It was just the reminder I needed to help rediscover that solid bit of hope which is always there to stand on when things are bleak and uncertain. Faith isn’t expected to be fed by cake, but maybe sometimes that’s what the soul really needs.